I'm sorry I'm such a horrible LJ friend! So much to update!!

The moving out thing didn't work out at all. I basically ended up having to pay all of the bills myself. Rent, Energy, Cable, and Internet. You have no idea how hard it is to do all of that on $1200 a month! But I was able to stay above water for the 6 month lease without having to go to my parents. I am very proud of that. Of course my roommate owes me over 2,000 dollars. But I won't ever see that money because she basically thinks that because we are/were friends that it is all just forgiven. My patience was tested but I think I passed with flying colors. I never got angry and I just let it go. I am starting from scratch again but I know I can do it. Anyway! On to better news!

I also finally got my tattoo! I got Serenity in Chinese characters on the back of my neck. I am so in love with it! I can't wait to go get another! Definitely going to go get a cross on my chest next! I better be careful though! It's so addictive! I could end up with my entire arm done! lol

My boyfriend, Eamonn, and I are almost at 6 months! I can't even believe it! I've made it passed the month mark and I am so happy. Of course there are ups and downs. I am far too clingy but I try not to be. But I love him. Of course I am way to scared to tell him that. I just don't know how he would take it since I don't know if he feels the same. But I am happy and I really hope this lasts!

I also am finally 21 which is wonderful! I love going out for drinks! So much fun! And my best friend turned 21 a week after I did so we have been having way to much fun and I love it! haha anyway I love you all and I hope you are all doing well!

Happy Birthday femme_fatale77! I hope you have had a wonderful birthday

haha I have been nudged to update by therealswat So I thought I would update since apparently it has been 11 weeks! These last few months have been insane. So many ups and downs I just don't even know what to do with myself! Eamonn and I have been dating for three months now. This is all very new to me since I have never really gone past a month before. It's hard because I like him so much but I really have no clue how much he really likes me. I suppose I could ask, but would I really like the answer? haha so I don't ask. But I love spending time with him and just being with him. He is really all that is keeping me sane at the moment.

Work is going very well. I have been moved over to stocker and I love it. My hours are now consistent and pretty normal. Lately I have been working 6am-2pm Monday thru Friday. I actually have the weekends off and have a life! The bad part is that I am constantly tired. Eamonn usually works 2pm-10pm so when we do hang out it is usually at night and I dont get much sleep. Which makes the long commute from work very scary at the end of the day. It's a little taxing living so far away from work and Eamonn. But in two and a half months I will be moving back home for awhile so at least I will be closer than.

A lot has been happening! I am officially moving out of my house on the 22nd of this month and into my own apartment! Amy and I found a great place in Puyallup with pretty good rent. It's 675 a month for 900 SQ FT. The living room is 15 x 15 which is awesome. We are downstairs and have a great little outside patio. It's so exciting. I prayed about the apartment and all the negative feelings were gone the next day. I am so thankful for that. It should be so much fun. Money will be a little tight because we will be driving from Puyallup to Tukwila every day but Amy is going to put her tips in a jar for alcohol so we will be just fine! haha I'm excited! Today we went and paid the deposit and got to go inside our apartment. We are so in love with it! Now all we need are hot neighbors and it will be perfect! haha

So much to talk about...

Okay so Amy and I have been looking for a place and we found a great one today. It was cheaper than all of them but had more square feet. So all we have to do is fill out an application. Of course I am soooo torn. I want to move out and have some independence but I also want to stay at home so I can save my money and stay with my family. I am so confused about it. And I don't even know how to tell Amy that I am not sure. I feel trapped and it sucks. I feel so much guilt. Guilt at attempting to leave my parents and guilt about not being a 100% sure about the apartment with Amy. Ah!

Anyway... Lets be more positive!! I love work! I love almost all the people there and it just makes me happy. I get frustrated by the customers a lot because they can be so unbelievably rude but besides that it is great. I've made a lot of new friends and it's so much fun!

Last weekend I had so much fun. I went to Amy's and got flat out drunk off my ass. It was too much fun. The next morning at work was not so much fun but it was still worth it!

I am so excited for the football season to start! I already requested Sept 10th off of work so I can watch football all day! Hopefully I will get it off. I have worked every Saturday since the first Saturday of May so I don't think it's asking too much to have one Saturday off. Anyway...
I have gone soft. I actually like the Broncos now. The damn dirty Broncos. Those bastards! But I can't help it. I like them. And even worse? I like Peyton Manning. What the hell is the matter with me this season?!
Before I go to work I am going to post the real reason football season is wonderful. All the hot guys
( I love Football )

Our justice system and media annoy the hell out of me. Having the Ramsey case come back up gives everyone an opportunity to stop and look at themselves. It makes me sick the way the Ramsey's were treated by the police, attorney's, a governor, the media, and the general public. It is so incredibly disgusting. I don't know how those investigators and "journalists" can even stand to look at themselves in the mirror. Especially Michael Kane, DA Alex Hunter, Governor Bill Owens, and Steve Thomas. They all completely destroyed this case. It can never be solved. So much evidence destroyed by their ineptness and tunnel vision. It's sick how the general public behaves as well. There is this sick perverse view on what justice is. Just like the Scott Peterson case. No one paid any attention to any of the evidence. No Scott Peterson was cold and cheated on his pregnant wife. He must be guilty. Oh no the Ramsey's actually subjected their daughter to beauty pageants so they must have killed her. You are supposed to follow and evaluate the evidence to find the suspect, not bend the evidence to fit who you want it to be. I'm not saying Scott Peterson is innocent. I'm just saying it is alarming to hear 3 people from that jury say that at the time when the prosecution rested their case they would have voted not guilty. But they changed their mind after. Isn't the prosecution supposed to prove the case? Obviously they didn't if the jury didn't think they could go with guilty at that time. That jury sentenced a man to death. Based on what hard evidence? The fact that he was cold and didn't show emotion in the court room.

haha okay sorry. The Ramsey case has always made me sick and I just felt the need to rant. And I just feel sick to my stomach when we see investigators fuck up a case so bad because of their obsession with certain "suspects". It's even worse when the prosecution and even the governor do the same thing. It's so wrong. We are too close to having mobs roam the street for "justice". It's fucked up

Today is my parent's 21st wedding anniversary! How exciting. haha too bad they both forgot until today! My dad actually had to remind my mom. haha so cute. Anyway... their marriage is old enough to drink! Which brings up another great issue, in 6 months I will be able to drink!

I have a conundrum! There is this bird we got in at Petsmart and he is soooo awesome. But he is $599. But I am soooooo in love with that bird!! I want to buy him but he is $599. I get 15% off that price though. Is it crazy to even think about buying him? I have the money....

I am liking work a lot now. I am getting along well with everyone. The other day David (one of the managers) made me think I was short $50 even though I wasn't. I seriously almost cried! Then he was like "hahaha no you just accidentally put the number of twenties in the tens spot." haha that ass. Then I was telling John (another manager) about it the next day and after I mentioned I was seriously about to cry he was like "Oh no if you were short $50 and about to cry I would probably be grabing 50 out of my pocket and being like "Oh don't cry I found your lost 50" haha That is sooo sweet! He is definitely one of my favorites!

In other very good news and few of the girls at work and I are going to go camping and drinking sometime very soon! I am sooo excited!! You don't even know how hard I try to find people who will go camping! So Kevy, Hannah, Megan, and I are probably going to go! Hopefully we can all get a day off!

And now I leave with the lyrics to one of Sinai Beach's great songs as part of my renewed focus on my religion. Sinai Beach is a Christian metal band. They are amazing! You can hear their song To the Church on my myspace if you want!
( Wolves In Sheep's Clothing )

( My Interests Collage! )
That was fun!
Anyway...
A lot has been going on lately and I love it. Work is going great. I get along well with everyone and I really feel like I fit in. Not having school is very nice!

On Saturday night I went out with Jenny, Amy and Kellie and it was so much fun. Very out of character for me since we went to a male strip club. Which was so weird and funny and fun. It was Amy's birthday and that's where she wanted to go. I think most of the guys were gay though. lol but tons of fun anyway.

For that fun Saturday night I went to the mall and bought a cute outfit and actually spent $80 on some hot high heels. They are sooo hot! I love them. And I bought a very low cut but still very cute black top. It's definitely one of my favorites now! I can't believe I spent that much on shoes but they are just so cute and worth it!

Oh and I hate the Mariners. I hate them so much. How could they get rid of Moyer?! http://seattletimes.nwsource.com/html/sports/2003213813_kell21.html A pretty good article on Moyer. This sucks

Before suspension:

After suspension:

I just finished up my last class for this quarter and now I have a little bit of time off before school starts again. Thank goodness. I am so going to use this time to work on me! Since May I have been doing nothing but 38-39 hour work weeks and school. So basically I have only been focused on work and school. Now I have time to work on some of my flaws and most importantly my faith. I still pray every night but that's about the only time I focus on God and that's not right. It makes me sad. I need God. I need that support, I need that understanding that I feel from Him when I talk to Him.

Even though school is over I am still low on free time since my normal hours are 2pm to 10pm. I have to leave my house at 1:30 so if I sleep in then that just knocks out the whole day! So I just have to be disciplined so I can have that time to improve myself! I only have a month until next quarter starts so I have to use all that time!!

I am really liking work a lot better now. I get along with almost everyone really well. And there is a new girl, Kevy, who is so nice! She and I went to Starbucks together during our break yesterday and we really get along. She even left me a note before she left just because she couldn't find me to say goodbye! She is so sweet. She is from Alaska so we get along well because she feels for Alaska what I feel for Montana. So I am happy because it is so hard to find good girl friends!

On a very sad note they are tearing down almost all the areas with trees around here to build cookie cutter houses. It makes me feel soooo trapped. I feel like I have to get out of here. It's driving me crazy. It's just so ugly. Tearing down the beautiful trees that make this place pretty and putting up ugly small houses so more people can move to the area to make more traffic. I can't stand it. I need to be somewhere open and free. Not like this.

This entry was ridiculously long. Sorry

Today was wonderful since I finally have the new Breaking Benjamin CD. It's not as good as the others because it's not as hard but it's still pretty good. Dance With the Devil is really good.

And as always the lyrics and tone are intense which is what makes Breaking Benjamin so good. Every song is full of emotion and you can feel it all. haha I dont know if that makes sense at all

New layout to celebrate Breaking Benjamin's new CD which is out tomorrow!! I am sooooo excited!!! Lyrics from their single Diary of Jane. Which is a great song! I'm so excited!

Anyway.. It is so beautiful out today. I can't believe I have to go spend the rest of my day working. haha that sucks.

It's nice when it is pretty here. I feel less trapped when it is like this. Almost as nice as I feel in Montana.

I got Who tickets! October 11th! I am soooo happy! They were pretty expensive so now I owe my mom $220 for our tickets and $60ish for my car insurance and a blank amount for text messages! But I am soooo happy! Floor tickets! I think I might have died had I not been able to get any!

Yesterday at work one of the guys I work with brought a friend in basically as a set up to meet me. It was so uncomfortable and horrible. Not my type at all and I just don't appreciate that at work! And after they both left one of my managers, Bill, was like "I bet that was fun. What you didn't like being set up like that?" haha I love Bill.

1. My myspace song is so awesome. I love it! Everyone needs to listen to the Kottonmoth Kings.

2. I don't like it when you come into my life, turn my emotions upside down, and then leave. I don't like that at all so please do not do that.

3. I'm so excited that Mary invited me to her fantasy football league. She is so awesome and I'm excited! It was a random type draft and my two QBs are Trent Green and Jake Plummer! I am so excited. This should be fun.

4. I keep reading a lot of articles and stories on how to deal with poor customer service and all that shit. Where are the articles on how to be better customers? As if all customers are right just because you are bringing your money there. No I'm sorry but that's just not true.

5. The funniest part of working at Petsmart is having people come up to you and be like "Do you have any bigger balls? Why are you all out of balls? Do you have harder balls? I guess it's all about the balls today" All in reference to the toy section of the story. I've had customers say all of those lines and it is soooo hard not to bust up laughing! And the guy who was like "Do you have any harder balls" said that and two seconds later looked embarrassed and was like a "Never mind" haha!

6. BREAKING BENJAMIN CD COMES OUT 8/8!

http://switch3.castup.net/cunet/gm.asp?ai=214&ar=1050wmv&ak=null

This is really good. I love her points on allowing people the freedom to believe what they want. Thanks for the link firewallender

New layout, The Rev!

Anyway.. It is still hot as hell. My car is killing me. No AC but hot leather seats. Oh well, thank goodness for my sponge bob wheel cover. Now my hands don't get burnt when I'm trying to drive like last summer!

So I went to pick up a CD at the library with my brother and he drove there and I drove on the way back. We were driving his car so it was the big lincoln town car. On the way home when I was driving we got in a race with some tiny car. I won. My brother was like "You are crazy! Why would you race someone here?! Both of you are immature." hahaha wow lectured by my little brother on my mad driving skills. Oh well, I won and that's all that matters.

I skipped weight training today because it's hot and I am not going to be in that class with all those stinky guys when Jenny is not there to suffer with me. Seriously, guys you should be shaving your armpits like women do. It's the only sanitary thing to do.

So today after work when we were done facing one of the guys was like "I just don't understand why a girl is a slut when she sleeps around but a guy isn't." One of the other girls was like "Yeah! Ashley did you hear what he said?" and was all impressed. haha why was I so not impressed. haha I was even disgusted a little that a guy was saying that. One I just don't trust that coming from a guy and two I just don't think it's very manly. haha I have serious problems. I just need to find an insensitive beer drinking football watching rock music listening tattooed crazy guy

It is so hot. Petsmart's AC is not working and probably wont be working until November. Yeah we'll really need it then. So it is sooo hot in there.

I have 1,800 in savings now which is great. I'm pretty excited that I'm starting to save. It's not that much right now but it will be. Although my cell phone bill probably won't be pretty!

The newest version of the libertarian platform is up now.
http://www.lp.org/issues/platform_all.shtml#immgr I encourage everyone to at least take a look! It's good to keep an open mind.

So the schedule for next week is out and it sucks so bad. I'm closing every night I work and my two days off are Monday and Tuesday. I hate having both days off early in the week. It sucks. All I do now is school and work. School work school work school work school work blah blah blah.... But I am making money which is nice. But retail sucks. People make me want to shoot myself in the head sometimes

But the really fun part about work is all of the little kids that come through my line. They are all so cute. I want one! haha j/k But really I can't wait to be a mom some day

So I have figured out what I want tattooed on the back of my neck and now the only issue is finding someone who knows the language I want it in. Which is hard because I don't want someone to do it wrong and then have it not mean what it is supposed to.

NEW YORK - It's been almost 25 years since the Who blasted their way through a major concert tour, so they should be ready. This fall, they'll give it another go, band members
Pete Townshend and
Roger Daltrey announced Thursday.

Opening date will be Sept. 12 in Philadelphia.

The legendary band will then wind its way through the U.S. and Canada before jumping next year to South America, the Far East, Australia and Europe.

North American destinations include New York, Chicago, Boston, Detroit, Seattle, Portland, Ore., Vancouver and Toronto.

The Who will perform songs from their upcoming album, "Wire and Glass," which will be released Oct. 23. It's the group's first studio recording since 1982's "It's Hard."

"I don't think I've ever looked forward to a tour as much as this one," Townshend said. "Roger and I are both fit and well, ready to rock."

Daltrey said he and Townshend plan to perform "some rarities that we've not played for a long time." They will be joined by keyboardist John "Rabbit" Bundrick, bassist Pino Palladino, drummer
Zak Starkey and singer-guitarist
Simon Townshend.

Tickets go on sale for the public July 17. Who fan club members can pre-order tickets through Saturday night.

Oh my gosh!! I will sell everything I own to go to this concert if I have to. This made my day!